Wow.
So much has happened for the past few days. Many happenings occured and quite a lot of things were revealed.
First of all, I got an epiphany on Physics.
Dun, dun, dun dun.....
Physics
is
fun.
Now, now don't get me wrong here. Today, I finally understand the underlying concepts in Electricity and Electronics. Kirchoff? Pfftt... Big Deal! Although, I'm still pretty much upset that we lost in the contest. Anyway, the brightside there is we get a perfect score on our quizzes. Yipee! No more grueling one-hour long quizzes which nobody can and ever will get.
I've just realized that the ideas in physics can be applied in real life. A chain reaction started when the catalyst is added in to the mixture. It was like Ms. Intal's meddling with Mr. Ecnart's affairs which started a very nasty fight resulting to damaged friendships and erased weblogs. How about that?
Second, Toilets are very powerful.
Yes, my dear readers, you have read it right. Toilets are powerful. I was flipping through the channels when an old documentary caught my attention, it was about toilets- its history, invention and evolution. It was really cool. Not only are they used for successful drops and relief for our wastes, thay can also be tools for mass destruction.
Toilets were first invented in Britain. Due to its "flushing" techniques, it became popular with the rich and mighty. Soon enough, every powerful member of the royal court has one; problem is Britain didn't have good sewage systems then. This problem resulted to a sea of excrement in the public square. Once you flush down something, I assure you, It will shortly bubble up from underground in your neighbor's backyard. Gross. This condition caused the outbreak of diseases which resulted to a million deaths on record.
Due to the problem presented by toilets, the Parliament then decreed to make good sewage systems. This solved the problem and technologically advance the British Isles. Until today, some of these are still used. See what toilets can do? So the next time you sit on your bowl than it for the changes it brought with it.
Third, being the president does not mean you know everything. Heck, I'm always the last to know. Being a non-gossiper sucks. I dunno if something is happening in my section that I should know about. Naivety sucks, people! I demand to know everything! well, not actually everything considering the amount of information I received from Hilaire about a certain nipping of the bud. I didn't need to know about that but a scandal spices up life, doesn't it?
I'm already falling asleep on the desktop so I bid my journal adieu. I'll continue this tomorrow...
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Friday, February 16, 2007
Pro, Prom, Promenade - An interlude to remember?
We had our prom today. Yipee! (Please take note of the sarcasm in here folks) Anyway, the day strted out fine. I woke up at nine to see m mother gushing with excitement. She looked so happy for me and I looked so peachy keen - not! I was confused and disoriented.
After three grueling hours of make-up and hair sessions, I was finally able to get out of my room alive. I looked fairly well (translation: an actual human being) but I was jittery. I wanted to dance with Ronald but I know deep inside that I can't.
The ceremonies went well and my, what a beautiful crowd was present. Everyone seemed happy and gay. Ronald was dancing like crazy and I loved watching every minute of his antics.
I waited for him to ask me to dance which I know will never happen but still. Anything can happen, right? Alas! I waited in vain. sure, I spent the whole night on the dance floor but it wasn't spent with him. It hurts me so to see him dance with all these girls and ignore me.
Ha ha ha. I really sound pathetic! He doesn't even know I exist and yet I yearn for him to notice me? How pitiful am I?
I'm relly trying to forget him since he will be moving out the next month. He will be studying at U.P. Diliman.
"Sigh" I would never really get a chance with my favorite guy in Masci...
Oh, how cruel is fate to me
That my only love be Ronald Belandres!
Shit.
After three grueling hours of make-up and hair sessions, I was finally able to get out of my room alive. I looked fairly well (translation: an actual human being) but I was jittery. I wanted to dance with Ronald but I know deep inside that I can't.
The ceremonies went well and my, what a beautiful crowd was present. Everyone seemed happy and gay. Ronald was dancing like crazy and I loved watching every minute of his antics.
I waited for him to ask me to dance which I know will never happen but still. Anything can happen, right? Alas! I waited in vain. sure, I spent the whole night on the dance floor but it wasn't spent with him. It hurts me so to see him dance with all these girls and ignore me.
Ha ha ha. I really sound pathetic! He doesn't even know I exist and yet I yearn for him to notice me? How pitiful am I?
I'm relly trying to forget him since he will be moving out the next month. He will be studying at U.P. Diliman.
"Sigh" I would never really get a chance with my favorite guy in Masci...
Oh, how cruel is fate to me
That my only love be Ronald Belandres!
Shit.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Rantings of the insane and cold-hearted
Valentine's suck. Especially if you are a cynical, lonely bitch like me.
It's kind of ironic that Valentine's Day is supposed to be sacred because its a special day for St. Valentine, who in turn, is a priest who fell in love with a blind girl. Hmm...
Its sad to see girls around you receiving gifts from their special someone and when you look at yourself, you see none.
Its nerve-wrecking to get your crush to notice you when he is laughing it off with other girls.
Its pathetic to receive a flower from your friend only because she can't take it home.
Its devastating to spend the day alone in a fast food chain when everyone around you is with their partners.
Its a blow to your ego to see your 40 something professor getting it on with his special someone.
Its particularly pitiful if it is your birthday and you spend it with your pet.
See, told you so that Valentine's suck when you are alone.
It's kind of ironic that Valentine's Day is supposed to be sacred because its a special day for St. Valentine, who in turn, is a priest who fell in love with a blind girl. Hmm...
Its sad to see girls around you receiving gifts from their special someone and when you look at yourself, you see none.
Its nerve-wrecking to get your crush to notice you when he is laughing it off with other girls.
Its pathetic to receive a flower from your friend only because she can't take it home.
Its devastating to spend the day alone in a fast food chain when everyone around you is with their partners.
Its a blow to your ego to see your 40 something professor getting it on with his special someone.
Its particularly pitiful if it is your birthday and you spend it with your pet.
See, told you so that Valentine's suck when you are alone.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Gulong, Itlog, Gulong
Last friday, we weren't able to meet Sir arcilla so I talked with my groupmates on what design shall we use for the egg-drop experiment. Jayson and I have some ideas on what to construct and I encouraged my other groupmates to research on egg-drop experiments on the net.
I was also contemplating on what to do with our powerpoint presentation to be shown on Wednesday. I don't want to do it, honestly, so I think that we'll just have to designate certain responsibilities for each member; I'd have to talk to our leader, Christiann, about that.
Hopefully, we'll have a successful egg-drop on Thursday.
Luck!
I was also contemplating on what to do with our powerpoint presentation to be shown on Wednesday. I don't want to do it, honestly, so I think that we'll just have to designate certain responsibilities for each member; I'd have to talk to our leader, Christiann, about that.
Hopefully, we'll have a successful egg-drop on Thursday.
Luck!
Catch Me When I Fall
I’ve tried it one too many times before. Yet, I remember the first time I’ve ever done it; dark thoughts invaded my mind and only a thin thread tied me to sanity. It was December then, the time for love, giving, sharing and birth and yet I was brooding and tense. I was 11 years old then and trying to bear the world’s problems. I can’t do it. The tension has taken its toll and I snap. It seemed to be the only option left then. So, I get the rusted blade and slowly made the cut. Blood was dripping slowly, one by one. Deeper. It turned into rivulets. Deeper. It was now flowing profusely. I felt revived and it seemed that all things cleared up but then reality came crushing in. In a nutshell, I lived.
My purpose in writing this report is to call the attention of the society to this epidemic spreading amongst the hope of our future. We should always take things into consideration before making any decisions. I’d like to present the cold, hard facts that underlie in this current phenomenon.
Suicide. It’s the latest trend in the youth today. According to the National Institutes of Health, Suicide is the third leading killer of 15 to 24 year olds in the United States, behind accidents and homicides. That is pretty much a big cause for concern among parents but what is more that in our country, among the 16.5 million young Filipinos, 2 million have contemplated committing suicide, with .05 million already with unsuccessful attempts, me included. This “silent epidemic” is slowly eating up the future of our nation. “Definitely, these are not small numbers in a society,” so emphasizes by Dr. Corazon M. Raymundo, professor of demography at the University of the Philippines Population Institute and the project coordinator for the Young Adult Fertility and Sexuality Study. Definitely too, in a nation that is expected to have 30 million youths by 2030, these numbers are a bad prophecy.
I’ve always wondered what drove those teenagers to commit suicide; what drove me to do that stunt again last September. My grandmother just died and everything seems to pile up; the pressure, my peers, schoolwork, everything. It looks as if I have no hope, depression sets in. And that is how the experts see suicide- suicide attempts as a very serious aspect of depression. Suicide is chosen as the only way in which depressed people can escape when they are unable to tolerate life as it is any longer. They believe that they can no longer fulfill any purpose in lie and are a burden to those they love, their friends, or society. Based on researches, there is an increased risk of suicidal gestures, completed suicide and death from accidents following the death of a spouse, parent or any loved one. Suicide and Bereavement, a match set in depression. Depression is a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity. Some signs of depression include: a sad mood which lasts for weeks or months, spells of crying when a person might not even know what he or she is crying about, chronic fatigue or lack of energy, poor self-esteem, lack of enjoyment in life. Another common thread of cause is the lack of respect given to them by peers. Being ridiculed for having unrequited love, being verbally and/or physically abused is example of this. Such case is Rekha Solanki. She attempted self-immolation (setting herself on fire) at her home in a residential complex At Mira Road last January 12 after Thakur, a driver living in Borivali, declined her proposal.
"Teenage" is often synonymous with emotional instability. One moment everything is fine and the next moment the world is ending. The inconstant nature of the adolescent makes it particularly difficult for parents, teachers and counselors to spot the behavior that signals suicidal thoughts. Parents often confuse suicidal warning signs with typical teenage behavior, according to child psychologist Cheryl King, Ph.D., from the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor. However, some major warning signs to watch for include: Marked changes in a youngster's personality at home or school, Transformations in a young person's eating or sleeping habits, Alcohol or drug use. Children at risk of suicide may threaten to hurt or kill themselves, reports Dr. King. They may also acquire dangerous drugs or weapons -- like pills or guns -- in an effort to kill themselves. Children with suicidal tendencies may talk or write about death. They might also organize their belongings in ways that suggest they are preparing for departure. Adolescents on the verge of suicide might demonstrate feelings of anger, hopelessness, anxiety or agitation. Dr. King also advises parents to look for possible signs of depression in children, like irritability and aggressiveness lasting for two weeks or more. Doctors can treat depressive disorders, including bi-polar disorder, with medications and psychotherapy. If there is any suspicion, Dr. King advises parents to contact a mental health professional for help immediately. Among girls, the most significant risk factor is the presence of major depression, which, in some studies, increases the risk of suicide 12-fold. The next most important factor is a previous suicide attempt, which increases the risk approximately 3 fold. Among boys, a previous suicide attempt is the most potent predictor, increasing the rate over 30-fold. It is followed by depression, disruptive behavior, and substance abuse.
Studies show that suicide attempts among young people may be based on long-standing problems triggered by a specific event. Dr. Raymundo writes that Metro Manila youth, on account of their exposure to more complex environment, also have the highest experiences in the angst of depression and hopelessness. Feelings of anger and resentment combined with exaggerated guilt can lead to impulsive, self-destructive acts.
There had been a little investigation of the potential neurobiological roots of teen age suicides. Researchers at the University of Illinois-Chicago and colleagues decided to take a close look at the enzyme called protein kinase C (PKC), which is already known to play a role in mood disorders. They wanted to know if the brains of teenage suicide victims exhibit different patterns of PKC than the brains of teens that died from other causes. The study showed that a reduction in PKC activity in the brains of teen suicide victims compared to those who died of non-psychiatric causes (mostly homicides). Someday these findings might lead to a test to identify teens at highest risk of suicide.
Whenever I feel the need to unwind or relax, I get my surgical knife and slice through my left wrists. Nobody notices it, so I just assume that nobody cares. I wonder if this is how other suicidal teenagers feel. I wasn’t to break free from this vicious cycle but then again, no one is there. That is why I feel happy for those who have finally gotten over their bouts of depression. Yes, there are actually some institutions that help people get over their suicidal tendencies like the American Association of Suicidology (ASS) which is dedicated to the understanding and prevention of suicide by promoting research, public awareness, education and training for professionals and volunteers. Another is the Samaritans which is a non-religious charity that has been offering emotional support for over 40 years by phone, visit and letter. also included are the Suicide Prevention Action Network (SPAN) – a non-profit organization dedicated to the creation of an effective national suicide prevention strategy; American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, Covenant House Youth Crisis Line and last but by far the most successful suicide prevention program, SOS (Signs of Suicide).
People usually kill themselves to escape what they see to be an intolerable and otherwise inescapable situation, not necessarily because they want to die. I suppose that I should stop this habit of mine. Digging deeper into the cuts whenever the pressure gets high. It isn’t healthy and convenient at all. I don’t want attention; I just want to be normal. What is normal anyway? I just hope that when I close my eyes and free fall into the unknown, letting go of all this crap, someone would catch me when I fall.
My purpose in writing this report is to call the attention of the society to this epidemic spreading amongst the hope of our future. We should always take things into consideration before making any decisions. I’d like to present the cold, hard facts that underlie in this current phenomenon.
Suicide. It’s the latest trend in the youth today. According to the National Institutes of Health, Suicide is the third leading killer of 15 to 24 year olds in the United States, behind accidents and homicides. That is pretty much a big cause for concern among parents but what is more that in our country, among the 16.5 million young Filipinos, 2 million have contemplated committing suicide, with .05 million already with unsuccessful attempts, me included. This “silent epidemic” is slowly eating up the future of our nation. “Definitely, these are not small numbers in a society,” so emphasizes by Dr. Corazon M. Raymundo, professor of demography at the University of the Philippines Population Institute and the project coordinator for the Young Adult Fertility and Sexuality Study. Definitely too, in a nation that is expected to have 30 million youths by 2030, these numbers are a bad prophecy.
I’ve always wondered what drove those teenagers to commit suicide; what drove me to do that stunt again last September. My grandmother just died and everything seems to pile up; the pressure, my peers, schoolwork, everything. It looks as if I have no hope, depression sets in. And that is how the experts see suicide- suicide attempts as a very serious aspect of depression. Suicide is chosen as the only way in which depressed people can escape when they are unable to tolerate life as it is any longer. They believe that they can no longer fulfill any purpose in lie and are a burden to those they love, their friends, or society. Based on researches, there is an increased risk of suicidal gestures, completed suicide and death from accidents following the death of a spouse, parent or any loved one. Suicide and Bereavement, a match set in depression. Depression is a mental state characterized by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and a despondent lack of activity. Some signs of depression include: a sad mood which lasts for weeks or months, spells of crying when a person might not even know what he or she is crying about, chronic fatigue or lack of energy, poor self-esteem, lack of enjoyment in life. Another common thread of cause is the lack of respect given to them by peers. Being ridiculed for having unrequited love, being verbally and/or physically abused is example of this. Such case is Rekha Solanki. She attempted self-immolation (setting herself on fire) at her home in a residential complex At Mira Road last January 12 after Thakur, a driver living in Borivali, declined her proposal.
"Teenage" is often synonymous with emotional instability. One moment everything is fine and the next moment the world is ending. The inconstant nature of the adolescent makes it particularly difficult for parents, teachers and counselors to spot the behavior that signals suicidal thoughts. Parents often confuse suicidal warning signs with typical teenage behavior, according to child psychologist Cheryl King, Ph.D., from the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor. However, some major warning signs to watch for include: Marked changes in a youngster's personality at home or school, Transformations in a young person's eating or sleeping habits, Alcohol or drug use. Children at risk of suicide may threaten to hurt or kill themselves, reports Dr. King. They may also acquire dangerous drugs or weapons -- like pills or guns -- in an effort to kill themselves. Children with suicidal tendencies may talk or write about death. They might also organize their belongings in ways that suggest they are preparing for departure. Adolescents on the verge of suicide might demonstrate feelings of anger, hopelessness, anxiety or agitation. Dr. King also advises parents to look for possible signs of depression in children, like irritability and aggressiveness lasting for two weeks or more. Doctors can treat depressive disorders, including bi-polar disorder, with medications and psychotherapy. If there is any suspicion, Dr. King advises parents to contact a mental health professional for help immediately. Among girls, the most significant risk factor is the presence of major depression, which, in some studies, increases the risk of suicide 12-fold. The next most important factor is a previous suicide attempt, which increases the risk approximately 3 fold. Among boys, a previous suicide attempt is the most potent predictor, increasing the rate over 30-fold. It is followed by depression, disruptive behavior, and substance abuse.
Studies show that suicide attempts among young people may be based on long-standing problems triggered by a specific event. Dr. Raymundo writes that Metro Manila youth, on account of their exposure to more complex environment, also have the highest experiences in the angst of depression and hopelessness. Feelings of anger and resentment combined with exaggerated guilt can lead to impulsive, self-destructive acts.
There had been a little investigation of the potential neurobiological roots of teen age suicides. Researchers at the University of Illinois-Chicago and colleagues decided to take a close look at the enzyme called protein kinase C (PKC), which is already known to play a role in mood disorders. They wanted to know if the brains of teenage suicide victims exhibit different patterns of PKC than the brains of teens that died from other causes. The study showed that a reduction in PKC activity in the brains of teen suicide victims compared to those who died of non-psychiatric causes (mostly homicides). Someday these findings might lead to a test to identify teens at highest risk of suicide.
Whenever I feel the need to unwind or relax, I get my surgical knife and slice through my left wrists. Nobody notices it, so I just assume that nobody cares. I wonder if this is how other suicidal teenagers feel. I wasn’t to break free from this vicious cycle but then again, no one is there. That is why I feel happy for those who have finally gotten over their bouts of depression. Yes, there are actually some institutions that help people get over their suicidal tendencies like the American Association of Suicidology (ASS) which is dedicated to the understanding and prevention of suicide by promoting research, public awareness, education and training for professionals and volunteers. Another is the Samaritans which is a non-religious charity that has been offering emotional support for over 40 years by phone, visit and letter. also included are the Suicide Prevention Action Network (SPAN) – a non-profit organization dedicated to the creation of an effective national suicide prevention strategy; American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, Covenant House Youth Crisis Line and last but by far the most successful suicide prevention program, SOS (Signs of Suicide).
People usually kill themselves to escape what they see to be an intolerable and otherwise inescapable situation, not necessarily because they want to die. I suppose that I should stop this habit of mine. Digging deeper into the cuts whenever the pressure gets high. It isn’t healthy and convenient at all. I don’t want attention; I just want to be normal. What is normal anyway? I just hope that when I close my eyes and free fall into the unknown, letting go of all this crap, someone would catch me when I fall.
A Curse known as Mcdo
Mcdo.
RoBe.
Ronald Carlo Padilla Belandres.
The bane and boon of my existence.
Weird much? I know.
Loving a fictional character is very easy. Sure you may get a bit delusional and everything but reality will always bite you in your arse. No matter what happens, the realization will sink in that he lives only in your sugar-coated or gory (in my case) world and in under no circumstance will he exist in real life. So, you move on and get a life.
But loving a real person is never easy; especially if you are in highschool. You're in different levels and your school has an on-going bathcwar. You get to see him everyday and yet he is very far from you. he doesn't give a twopence shit for your existence. Hi, I'm Eris. Welcome to my life. welcome to chaos.
I always see him everyday and its quite impossible not to notice him with his tall and lean frame, immaculately cropped hair and very clean uniform. I see his beautiful smile and hear his deep voice; I can't help but smile and turn red to the roots. It was out of curiosity at first but as they say, "curiosity killed the cat." I fell.
I hardly noticed him before even though we share the same lunch period and his table is coincidentally always parallel with ours. It went on like this until I've gotten so used to his presence that I always seek him out.
He isn't that good-looking and well-known in our school but he caught my attention still. I like him for his brains(he does great in ad. chem, physics and math) and character.
Ahh!!!!!!! I can't let him do this to me! Sure, I've got a crush on him but to the extent of that----!?! You've got to be kidding me! I woke up with a start because I dreamt of him kissing me. Ahhhh!!!!!!! He's eating my mind like cancer and I've no complete control of my defenses.
Hormonal teens suck!
RoBe.
Ronald Carlo Padilla Belandres.
The bane and boon of my existence.
Weird much? I know.
Loving a fictional character is very easy. Sure you may get a bit delusional and everything but reality will always bite you in your arse. No matter what happens, the realization will sink in that he lives only in your sugar-coated or gory (in my case) world and in under no circumstance will he exist in real life. So, you move on and get a life.
But loving a real person is never easy; especially if you are in highschool. You're in different levels and your school has an on-going bathcwar. You get to see him everyday and yet he is very far from you. he doesn't give a twopence shit for your existence. Hi, I'm Eris. Welcome to my life. welcome to chaos.
I always see him everyday and its quite impossible not to notice him with his tall and lean frame, immaculately cropped hair and very clean uniform. I see his beautiful smile and hear his deep voice; I can't help but smile and turn red to the roots. It was out of curiosity at first but as they say, "curiosity killed the cat." I fell.
I hardly noticed him before even though we share the same lunch period and his table is coincidentally always parallel with ours. It went on like this until I've gotten so used to his presence that I always seek him out.
He isn't that good-looking and well-known in our school but he caught my attention still. I like him for his brains(he does great in ad. chem, physics and math) and character.
Ahh!!!!!!! I can't let him do this to me! Sure, I've got a crush on him but to the extent of that----!?! You've got to be kidding me! I woke up with a start because I dreamt of him kissing me. Ahhhh!!!!!!! He's eating my mind like cancer and I've no complete control of my defenses.
Hormonal teens suck!
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